Have you ever ever considered how I felt during that time when I asked your stand on this mess that is our relationship? It took me a great deal of courage to ask those things to you, and a greater deal of courage to handle the whirlwind of emotions when you replied that we should just be friends.
I could deal with being friends because gawd, I liked you. But what did you do? You continued to show me affection in a way no friend would do to another friend. You chose to toy with my emotions after crushing my expectations. Still, I learned to forgive you, because I cannot stay mad at you. Because feeling angry towards you makes me feel like I am the one at the losing end, when it shouldn’t be.
Also, have you considered how I felt when you told me that you felt like I used you to my advantage? All the while I thought we are a team, but you thought otherwise. Your image of me is a user. Had I known, I would have done all the work by myself, because you and I both know that I COULD DO THEM ALL and I would be successful doing it. I am a user? Still, I forgave you.
I forgave you. I forgave you as if it was like giving candy to a kid. No second thoughts, unselfishly.
Today, I will forgive you for the very last time. I forgive you for never considering how I felt. I forgive you for being selfish of your feelings. I forgive you for not empathizing.
You never gave me the benefit of the doubt, no matter how many times I have given you that chance, and for that I forgive you.
I hope we don’t see each other anymore. I am done being friends.
Now ask yourself why I never came around to loving you.
